The past couple of days, I've felt pretty pathetic. I've been feeling a bit depressed over shit that I need to just man-up and accept.
You see, every once in a while, when I've been single for a while, I get really bummed. I see those around me and see their happiness in their relationships or just joy in life, and it makes me jealous, sad and feel defeated. I feel defeated, when I haven't even fought. I'm sad that it seems like I'm invisible to girls. And those that I do talk to, I can only ever be "just a friend". I seem to give off some vibe that makes them automatically place me in the "Friend's Zone".
And, yet, I don't even try. I'm crippled by fear of rejection. And my friends that are girls have admitted to me that when they've watched the girls I've tried to talk to, they've said that the girls are clearly not interested. I just lack any semblance of attractiveness.
So, I find myself always thinking, why bother going through the humiliation of rejection?
And that bums me out.
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