Once again, I'm reminded about how much I hate attraction. In that, I mean, I hate how subjective it is. I hate how things can automatically rule you out, regardless of the "real" you.
Oh, fuck it. Let's be real. I'm just bitter I'm not some tall, model-looking guy. Assholes and dicks tend to get the girl, because I don't fit "the type". And I don't blame them at all. I don't blame a girl for following what she's attracted to. I don't blame a guy for using his wares to get the girl.
I guess this stems from a reaction I got earlier. Was IM'ing someone and she had the typical reaction when she found out my height. And that just re-awakened all of the past times where my physical shortcomings fucked me over. I'm okay with being short. Really, "accepting yourself for who you are" is something I've come to peace with a long time ago. For me, it's the fact that opportunities are lost.
You could say that if someone doesn't accept you for who you are, you shouldn't be with them. But you never know when it could have been something great, because of a small thing. You never know…
Anyway, I've long since stopped looking for a girl. I've been tired of having to subjugate myself to the constant rejection and dismissals. I'll probably never find a girl like that. They say that sometimes you have to fight for what you want. I'm too tired to fight.
On a side note, what's with all of the depressing posts?! When do we get to the fun shit?
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